I cannot Catch Up with You

There are something that I can never catch up with.
They are just too fast.
The wind, the rumours, my thoughts, people's thinking and the list goes on to infinity.
To me, time is one of the thing that I can never catch up too.
I'm always late for it.
I wonder how great it will be if God can make me be in a few different places doing the things that I want to do all at the same time.
Then, time won't be wasted.
I missed a lot of events in the past that I wanted to take part very much.
I'm starting to feel a little regret with all of it.
I regret that I wasn't there for my friend when they needed me most.
I regret that I didn't spend enough time with my mum.
I regret that I did nothing even when time flies.
I regret that I never spend enough time with God, feeling Him and listening to Him, I regret that I didn't play enough with my dog.
I regret that I didn't do more 'ss stuffs' with my bunch of best friends.
I want to do all these.
But, again...the time passes so fast.
Everyone has grown so much...
When can I catch up with the TIME?

Who can I trust?

There was a girl who approached me once
when I was waiting for a bus at the bus stop.
She invited me to one of her church events.
It was a musical call 'Now I See".
I was really convinced with everything she said and we even became friends at that very time. We even exchange numbers.
I had a really good impression on her.
I trusted her.
Now that I've read the utar freshies' handbook
only I realise she's one of the cult devotees.
I never know that. I almost fall and was being convinced by her.
Thank God I didn't go for their event.
The moment when I came to know the truth,
I don't know why I was filled with so much fear.
My eyes start to well up.
At one moment I felt very fortunate that I didn't go but at another moment, I felt very insecure.
I felt being stupid.
This is not the first time I know I can be cheated easily.
I tend to trust people so easily.
It's my strong point but it is also my weak point.
I can't even differentiate what's right and what's wrong now.
I don't know who to trust here
. Everything is still so alien to me.
I missed my home so much suddenly.
I miss being with my mum and my hometown friend.
It's like a 'used to it' reflex when I start to text my best friend and tell him 'bout it.
I wanted to call my mum so much just now.
And, I did both things.
Listening to them makes me think I'm still a kid.
I'm still very weak to survive out here.
Both of them tell me not to believe people easily.
And I take what my best friend said, he said "you can only depend on God when you are there alone".
I take his words, seriously. I can run to no one except God.
Everyone is away for me... I'm alone here.
It feels so good to chat with this friend of mine again.
We've not been really talking for quite some time.
I'll treasure this moment for life, friend.
Now that I've spilled out,
I felt much better.
With the few person that strike my head first at the time I'm in fear,
I suppose they are the person that I trusted most.
Anyway, thank you mum and friend for your words of advice.

A beautiful day....

To me, today is quite a special day.
I woke up very early in the morning today to go for the morning prayer activity in uni. It was a very cold morning.
I shiver when i wash my face. Then, I had a piece of cheese tart that I bought from pasar malam yesterday.
It was so tasty...I still can taste it in my mouth now.
After doing my quiet time, I start to cycle to the uni at 6.45 a.m.
This was my first time cycling to uni so early.
I didn't sweat a bit. The scenery of the lake was breathtaking.
I see quite a number of uncles and aunties walking around, jogging, hanging out at the park. It was not that dark as the sun is rising...
So, I bet you can imagine the beauty of pink mix orange color sky...The birds were all flying over my head as though they are welcoming me...
.It was such a nice experience.
The wind that blows towards me, ah.....feel so good...
Now, I understand the feeling of one of my friends who loves to jog in the morning here, in this place.
You can feel the beauty of the nature and that makes you really in joy.
At least, I was in joy when I saw that.
And that made my day.
After my math class, I went to the cafeteria with the normal bunch of friends.
And here comes, another funny scene happen.
Aaron and Keng Hua acting like two little kid fighting for a polystyrene to draw and scribble something.
I just can't stop laughing looking at the two of them..

Part of their masterpiece

BEsides, I also enjoyed my basic English class a lot especially
during the sketch session. It seems there's a few
talented actor in my class. I had a really good laugh. Then later, I went for prayer walk in block D. As I was walking there, I saw a dragonfly settling down on a branch above my head.
I think it was a very pretty dragonfly.
I don't know why the appearance of the dragonfly put me in such great joy today.
It makes me think that God is indeed a GREAT GREAT CREATOR!!

Jia Vern, Me and Jenifer

The pretty dragonfly

Yummy...

This is one of the food that I bought in the pasar malam today. What a great day I have, though I'm so exhausted now. Ming Qiu and Kathrine Lee came to visit me in Kampar and so we went to pasar malam together. I think we shared almost all the food that we bought and it was so tasty. The tokoyaki is so delicious.But, the best of all would be the curry fishball...(My saliva is pouring down). It's so nice to have the two of them accompanying me even only for two hours. These are one of the moments that I enjoyed most in Kampar so far. Yesterday night, the CF had another event that touched me a lot. It was my first time in Wesley Methodist Kampar. It was indeed a very nice church... They make us watch a movie called "Facing The Giants". It's not like my first time watching this show, but, somehow, the message sounds new to me. I think I learn something again yesterday night. God is always there for us. We should be praising Him no matter what happens. He can do all great things to us. Nothing is impossible to God. There's one man in the show said " God made us weak because he wanna make something big in our lives that other people can give glory to Him". This caption strike my head at once. After that, they have a short worship session. I sang with a full heart to God especially when they start to play heart of worship. I've been singing that song by myself for the whole week. It was a great song...and I'm deeply moved by the lyrics. However yesterday night ended up quite funnily because I forgot to take my umbrella home after the thing ended. I had to trouble Mr. K (our CF advisor) to send me back to church again to take it back. And in the end, my seniors have to send me home...They are so kind...Thank GOd for placing these people around me to help me when I'm in need.

OBSERVE+ REFLECT+LEARN

I got no mood to study today. So, I decided to use this time to read some blogs. I find myself clicking back into my CF president's blog again. His blog attracts my atention a lot since the first time I see them. I think what he wrote inside not only tell me about what he had gone through but also teaches me a lot. I learn a lot of things as I read his blog. I learn that I really have to depend fully on God no matter in what I do. This is not something that many people can do. And I'm one of those who are trying to do it with God's help. It is not an act of accidentally for me to found his blog. I believe God has arranged all this for me. I find it very amazing to see how God plan the days ahead of me. You see, it is not my will to come here to UTAR, and I ended up here. There's not many society that opens up a booth at the cafeteria to invite new members but CF is one of them. It was a planned schedule by God to have me registering into CF, calling me to go for the first Prayer Walk even though I was very tired that day, introducing me to all this wonderful seniors and new christian friends, going into a journey of rebuilding the faith in me towards Him through the words and prayers they said, getting know the other people's walk of life and finally letting me to OBSERVE, REFLECT AND LEARN from them. God, thank you for creating such a great plan for me. You alone know what's best for me. Thank you, Lord!

The first time I'm using this lappy

This is my very first time using this lappy to write in this blog...The feeling is quite good...I just got my new laptop today and I already bring it to Kampar. I attended the youth class this morning and we talked about relationship between the opposite sex. It was an interesting discussion, anyway. I learn to respect other out of love for them...Barney said something that hit me straight away today...He said, a mother will not mention what she had done for her children at all because they do it out of love.But, if ever they start to mention about what they did for the kids, the reason is because the kids didn't treat her in a way that show love. I reflected on what he said. It was quite true, indeed. My mum has been mentioning about what she did for us lately. Honestly, I also notice that I didn't treat her as well as I used to be. I'm not sure what's the reason but I know it is my fault. I can't really control my own anger and impatience.I think the cause that changes me into such a jerk is me losing my grip from Christ. I need to come back into the right track,but...lately, everything is just so not right for me until I read my CF president's blog. I learn a lot in his blog...I think I really need to rebuild my faith in Him. God please lay out your saving hands to save me again....

The ups and downs

It has been two weeks since lessons started in UTAR.I got a very bad connection over there in Kampar that's why I got no chance to update my blog...Two weeks are quite short but it's long enough to change a person. Don't worry, I hadn't change much. It's just that the perception that I had for UTAR has changed a little. That place was not as bad as I thought or as bad as some people thought. I start to have some good feelings towards this place. I think it's like the same way how I change my perception towards St. Anthony.The start always comes with negative critics and ugly perceptions, but when I settled down at these places...the good points tend to reveal. I think all colleges and university and schools are just the same...It is the choice that makes us go into different path. And, I chose to go Utar. I've gone through a lot in this two weeks. I felt being alone, I felt being blessed, I felt being protected, I felt being loved, I felt being honoured, I felt being stupid. I was really sad last Tuesday because I got no one to be with me at the moment that I needed someone most. But somehow, in the end I made it through too. As long as someone is there just to give us a word of assurance or just a warm hug, I believe there is nothing that we cannot do courageously.I love this caption the most " a firm handshake can warm a person's heart".