A testimony

The things that I need to do this semester are almost done. Time passed in a blink of an eye. So fast... The clock ticks without me even noticing it. Being a little free now, I used this time to reflect what I had done in this seven weeks. I was involved in an event called "Joy To The World" organised by the Christian Fellowship. This event is very different from the one we did for Easter. This one is of a bigger scale. I learn a lot about communication, respect and tolerance towards one another throughout the whole preparation of this event. I endured tiredness and problems. It was a period of time that I didn't know how I could manage to stay strong if I do not have God. He put people around me to support me and provided all my needs. It's amazing how God worked in my life. I'm sure the minute when we took up the challenge to do this event, God has already know the problems that we will encounter and had came out with solutions. It is only the matter of our faith. I want to admit that I was not strong and courageous enough to stand firm. But, thanks to the encouragement that I received from friends and my family, I managed to pull this through. Well, the performance turns out to be quite good despite all the technical errors. I personally feel that the impact of this event not only happened to the audience on that particular night but also to every single person that had participated in making this event a successful one. We went through mind battles and different challenges throughout these seven weeks. It's good to see when everyone get together to do God's work together just like old time. The outcome was something that touches me until today. In the end, everything is under God's control. I shouldn't had worried for it was unnecessary. Beside me is one BIG GOD that can make the impossibles into possibles. This is really a testimony that I will treasure.

What The Lord has done in me

I was listening to this song "It's what the Lord has done in me".

Let the weak say I am strong
Let the poor say I am weak
Let the blind say I can see
It's what the Lord has done in me

God has been doing a lot of things in my life. I may not have spoken of it but I do realized how He works things out for me. God has richly blessed me with things that even at times I feel I'm unworthy for it. I'm too ashamed to face God for I'm dirty. Very dirty.
I always wonder why God would bless me with good marks in my exams when others who worked ten times harder than me got lower marks. I found my answer today.

Keeran shared a verse with me today.

"Enlarge the place of your tent,
stretch your tent curtains wide,
do not hold back,
lengthen your cords,
strengthen your stakes"

Isaiah 54:2

He explained that the enlarging the tent means extend the church or an organization or even our individual mentoring towards others. Stretching the curtains is to welcome and not to hold back. Facing it courageously with the Lord.Lengthen cords means to extend our connection to our surroundings. It might be the people or the situation. Strengthening stakes refers to the depth of knowledge of God's words which comes with the relationship with God as well.
He asked me which state am I in.
I do not know the answer at that time.
But now as I ponder it once again, I'm at the state of holding back.

I was holding back my heart to go one step closer to the Lord because I'm ashamed.
And the answer to why God has blessed me with all these goodness of getting good grades was because He wanted me to go back to Him.
Challenging me to spend more time with Him by using His goodness to touch me from my broken heart and life,
wanting me to go back to a life that places Him first above everything else.
Above everything includes literally EVERYTHING from studying to serving Him.
It is the relationship that matters.
God is really great.
He is real.
How often do you see SOMEONE overcome your bad deeds with overflowing blessings?
How often do you see SOMEONE coming to your rescue when you call out to him although he knew you sinned against him?
This is my wake up call!

Great news

Two weeks back, I received a call from Sarawak. It was from the Samling Company, the company to which I had sent my scholarship application form to. The one that cause me so much trouble to write in by myself without giving me a form to fill. Having them short-listing me for the interview was the last thing appearing in my mind. Well, anyway...I went to the interview. (Thanking God it was being held in UTAR and not in Sarawak). I personally felt that I didn't do well during my interview. But, by God's grace, they told me that I was selected to be awarded the scholarship. (Jaws drop down) I was so surprise to see the email. I happily announce it to almost everyone who knows I went for the interview. Everyone was very happy with it, including myself, of course. It has been three days since I received the news and I think I'm still in shock. I can't believe I just got a scholarship that requires me to be bound for only 3 years. Ada...got a scholarship. I'm still finding it weird and somehow, disbelieving.

God's plan?

I'm now officially enrolled as a degree student. I can't believe I've gone this far but I know, I'm about to start the next journey of my life. It's going to be a long and interesting one. I just know it. =) Lately, I just got a job of being a translator. Two years back, I told my mummy that I want to work as a translator when I've grown old enough. Surprisingly, here I am, not even reaching 20 yet, have already gotten the job of being a 'part-time comic translator'. I thought translating is an easy job but after going through the test that my boss sent me, I definitely have changed my mind. Probably it is due to my weak Bahasa Melayu. For the past 18 months I had stopped conversing and writing in Bahasa Melayu. So, translating from English to Bahasa is quite a challenge for me. I think God is having a great plan for me ahead. There were a lot of amusing scenarios that happened to me last week. It all started on Thurday. Let me start off on how I get this job.

Aaron is one of my friend that used to hang out with me. However, he found another group of gang during the second semester. This group of friends that he normally mixed with are people who are very studious and smart. So, the story starts on last Thursday when I start to ask Aaron 'why are you taking my homework lately?' He said that his bunch of friends were busy doing medical reports and working. So, the word ' working' caught my attention. I continued to ask about what work they are getting into just out of curiosity. And so, he introduced me to this job and helped me to contact my current boss. But at that very moment, I was thinking for a reason for me to take the job and I don't find one. It's not like I'm craving for money. But somehow, after that, someone called me to join the study tour to Korea. Now, I found a reason to work part time. I wonder if this is part of God's plan. And after a translation test, she accepted my application. Hurray! I just want to say a big THANK YOU to Aaron now.

Anyway, our conversation didn't stop there. We continue talking about one of his friend who can type and translate very fast. The person that he was talking is someone I admire a lot. Someone I only know by name and by face. I've heard a lot of stories about him but I never really get to talk to him. In fact I actually discussed about this with another friend of mine before on how is this person not suppose to know me and stuff. On the next day, this guy so happen to appear beside my table and start talking to me. I was quite surprise on how he started the conversation. He called me by name. -_-!! Only then I realised, he knows my name. I feel like I'm writing crap but I find it very mysterious somehow...==

What is going on with the people around me

I have been doing great this semester despite my deteriorating results. I enjoy the things I'm doing. I enjoy the friends I'm having. I enjoy the life I'm having. What makes me even happier is to knowing that the friends around me are doing just as good as I am. I know Ming Qiu and Esther is involving in some UPM competition which requires them to take used materials to make up something new and useful. They are doing a fine job there after getting into the finals. Chee Hooi's group is coming up with ideas on how to help a poor family. Elizabeth is having an awesome time in Paris. Even my university friends are all busy with something. Like Ah Beh and Kah Soon, they are busy with their girlfriend. Others getting busy with finals. As for the new CF committees, they are all coping up in their responsibilities. And I have one more friend in America, he's enjoying his life there doing recordings in the recording studios till 4am. Hahaha...He came out with some really awesome song and covers. I...I'm doing good too.

'Ada, surprisingly, you look a lot more calmer this semester'

" Ada, surprisingly, you look a lot more calmer this semester", said John. That's the phrase that makes me smile today. I admit that I really had become a lot more calmer compared to last semester.

Although I have more assignments and presentations and even get involved in an Easter Musical, I feel happy.
Maybe it is because I'm doing something that I have a lot of passion in, musical.
I love to sing,
I love to act,
I love the art of spreading message to people with body language.
Though, I'm not singing and acting on stage on that very day,
but...
it doesn't matter to me.
Even if I'm playing the least role in it, I'll still be very happy.
I hadn't been blogging for some time due to my hectic schedule. I have move in and out between practices, classes and home. It's really tiring but, I'm still pushing on because God is giving me the ultimate strength.
Praise the Lord.
It's amazing how we get to connect with the people around us even more closer when we are trying to achieve the ONE goal.
I got to know some of them better from the inside out.
I used to think Kharis as a very quiet girl. But, now, not anymore. We have a lot to talk. I enjoy the time when two of us write and compose songs together. I enjoy the time, when I share my problems with her.
Now, I also know more about Lu Yi, Shu Jian, Steven, Grace,Roy and Keeran.
Lu Yi is such a sweet girl who offers to cook for me.I enjoy the time when we cook maggi mee.
Shu Jian whom I used to thought that he's a 93 guy turns out to be someone that proves that he's 91. He's got brains and really good English. Kharis and I learn a lot from him.
Steven, the daddy. He is a great friend. I never know he is a star in music. He can play the piano so well.
Thanks for entertain us with the beautiful melody.
In the midst of writing songs, composing songs, editing scripts, pouring out ideas, making thousands of phone calls to remind about practices, worrying for one another, preparing props, practicing dance, warming up vocals, tuning in the right key, playing on the piano, reading over the lines again and again, trying to get the best expression, directing people, getting the venue fixed, spreading the news about this musical and praying earnestly to God,
I learn to stay strong and hope that the least will come out from me,
but the most comes from God.

'Secrets-revealing-weekend'

I went through quite an unusual weekend back in Teluk Intan. I spent some time having some very intimate talk with two person despite preparing for my tests.

On Friday night, I had a chat with a friend of mine. He isn't very close to me but we've known each other for quite some time. He said he is so troubled and find no one to go to and end up, chatting with me. Well, I think it is by God's grace that I was still awake at 2a.m. for him to find me. He was feeling so devastated and crying all the way. He told me about his wrong-doings and how he felt so bad about it.He look so unloved. I felt his pain and cried together. I know it sounds stupid but I can really felt his desperation of wanting God to fill his heart. He wants to feel the love of Christ forhim again. He wanted so much to make things right but it turns out the other way round. He wanted to stop all his bad behaviors but he never get to fulfill his promises. I'm glad that he noticed his negative attitudes. I pray that God can grant me the strength to help him .

Then, on the following night, I had a long good chat with my sister. We started off talking about K-Pop concerts and then to my crush. And slowly, we went to a topic that I never thought we would even talk about it, our family problem. All these years, I thought I was the only one who was deeply hurt by the things I see and felt the pain of going through all the hard situations by myself. I thought she was living somewhere else knowing nothing that had happened back at home. But that wasn't true. In fact, she knows I cry to bed every night but not wanting to say anything about it. She knows the fear I had to bear. She knows a lot of things. On the other way round, I was the one who don't know her knowing all these and also the things she had to face in KL alone. She remained quiet and keep everything to herself. How can someone be so strong to keep all these fears in herself and not showing the least bit of it? She's amazing. I never know my sister got so much fears. But she never shows it. I wish I could help her to overcome her fears but... I 'm not there with her all the time.God is the only one that can help her then.

Now,I know my sister better ...She's indeed another person that I think is very strong besides my mum.