I'm right behind....

Someone once told me that I am left behind.
I always deny because I think I can still catch up with it.
But as time pass, I think I'm becoming tired of chasing it.
Sometimes, situations also don't allow me to do it.
I understand no one is to be blame for it.
God made it this way.
I have to learn to accept it.
I don't feel good, in fact...a little heartbreaking when I have to accept the fact.
The feeling is like it doesn't matter if you exist or not.
You don't belong here anymore....
It has been so long since I've come here, but still...I feel empty.
I can find no one that if I call, they will come.
And this week,
I'll be left behind again.

Gloomy Week

This is the most tiring week I've ever had in this year.
So many things had happen this few days.
I received one of the worst news this year saying that my good friend lost his beloved.
We all know how pain it is to lost someone we love
but I think no one can understand the cry in his heart,
only God can comfort him.
It's very sad to see our own friend to face such a situation.
All we can do is to stand by him,
ready to help,
ready to lend him our shoulder,
ready to listen if he wants to talk.
That's what friends are for.
I'm very thankful to God because He had given me the chance to stand by this friend this time when he is going this hard time in life.
I had missed all those time in the past to support each other when both of us didn't contact.
I had been worrying for many things.
When I wish that someone could stand beside me and say,
it's okay, relax, everything will be alright- and there, God sent two friends saying that to me. Thank you again, God.
I wouldn't be strong enough if I'm without Him.
I'm going to take my Economics test tomorrow.
This is my weakest subject.
But, the worries that I had the days before for this test faded.
I'm just sitting down here blogging with a calm heart.
I think it's all because of the prayers.
What a week!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

=These are some of my friends=

I have many friends in my life.

So many till I've lost calculated.

However, there are only a few of them whom I treasured most.

I see them almost like my family members.

I love each and every one of them more than anything.

It is hard to express my feelings towards them face-to face at times.

I agree that I'm a very sensitive person.

And because of that, I feel very hard to hold back my tears when something goes wrong with the people around me, especially those who are very important to me.

I feel very weak and stupid to cry.

But, I just can't control. I don't know why. God made me this way, I guess.

It feels much better after a big cry every time I feel down. It is a good way for me to release stress.

I've been thinking a lot lately.

Or maybe I should say, too much of thinking.

I'm thinking if the best friends I made now, will they stay with me forever?

I'm thinking if I'm being a good friend to them.

I'm thinking if I'm always there when they really need me.

I'm thinking what would be my feelings on the very day when a good friend of mine walk away from my life.

I'm thinking if they will cherish the happy moments that we spent together in the past.

I'm thinking if they will forget me someday in future.

I know all these sounds a little dramatic but, it does happen in reality.

Miss you guys a lot...