Slowly changing again

Today I went to church like I always do. I happily stepped into the sanctuary, greeting the aunties that I saw and Barney. Then at the front desk, Mrs. Woo brought forward a brown colored, medium size envelope to me. My name was written on it in BOLD. I got a shock receiving it. And she went " Your boyfriend left you this". I know she's joking and just laugh on what she said. I tried to get her tell me who gave that all along. In the end, she say," Barney". And Barney was right behind me. It's quite surprising to see him still hanging around here and giving me a Christmas present when Chinese New Year is just four days away. But anyway, presents are never too late...Hehehe... When I unwrapped it, I found a book written there... " Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire". Well, the title did captured my attention but the cover of the book look rather boring.

Just now, I decided to just take a look of the book but the content catches my attention. I kept reading it not wanting to let it down. The book talks about a couple who heard the calling of God to serve in a a church in downtown Brooklyn and the miracles they experienced as the years gone by. Their faith for God and certain phrases in the book had touched me deeply and had me reflect it to my life.

Today is quite a good day for me because I slowly felt the presence of God in me again after slacking for quite some time. When Pastor Andrew gave the sermon " the Prodigal Son- The Elder Son", I felt as if he is talking about me. It is clear that most of the Christians had know this story very well and I am no exceptional. But, as he was preaching today, the real meaning of the scripture only appeared to me. I am like the Elder Son.Everything happened so fast that I only get to put things two by two now. God is trying to tell me how to draw back to HIM.

First, he put me as a committee member in an Easter program that requires me to do the casting and help out in the script rather than the costumes this time. Then, Wendy said she felt like doing a drama based on the story "The Prodigal Son". And, of course we agreed. As we discussed about it, Barney's testimonial just struck my thought and I told them about him. So we came to an agreement to act out his past. On that very night itself, I felt so worried if I cannot get an endorsement from him to do his story but thank god, he said 'ok' and even offered to write it out for us to refer.

Then comes today, this sermon popped out from no where and of all place I can wander, I attended the service back in my own church. Sitting down there, looking at the bulletin, still got surprised by the gift i got before that, Barney came and said "I think I'm the younger son" pointing at the title of the sermon. I laughed at what he said and agreed to it thinking that he was talking about the script I told him. But after listening to the sermon, only then I realized what he is talking all about.

Another thing that you may find it normal but I find it surprisingly weird is Vennesa and Pei Fen. No doubt these two girls are the closest to me in church, normally, I'll be the one who starts to talk and talk more than them. But today, as soon as Vennesa sit down by my side, she start telling about all the great things that had happened in Jeremiah School. I just sat there listening to her. It isn't the stories she said that mesmerized me but the fire and faith she had for God that inspired me again. Though she is a baby Christian but who cares, God takes care of those who are weak and uses them even more. As for Pei Fen, lately, she had constantly sms-ing me about her spiritual walk with God in Acts Church. I'm glad that she settled down in Acts Church and get to encounter God. The same thing like Vennesa, I felt the excitement she had for Christ. Two of them made me reflect to myself again. They somehow dropped me a message but I still don't know what's it. I know God is slowly changing my life again.

Before forgetting this, there's also another event that I find that God is trying to tell me something. Dad told me about his conversation with Andrew Chew during a dinner in KL.Andrew Chew told my dad that I'm having a lot of spiritual warfare. It's weird hearing that from him. The question is how would he know what I'm going through now when I hadn't tell him before. And what makes him so sure that I'm having a lot of spiritual warfare. I ponder on this for a while but deep down in my heart, I actually think he's right. I'm worried that I'll stumble to the temptations around me. The only thing I can do is to pray to HIM.

'God never turn a deaf ear to the one who CRIES out to HIM.'

Sweet and Bitter first week

It has been four days since the third semester of my foundation year started. I name this week bitter because I had to suffer three sleepless nights due to itchiness all over my body. To make the long story short, it was due to allergic. I didn't know that I'm allergy to dust so badly all this while. So, now that I know, does it mean I can stay out of all the cleaning chores? I think my mum is going to say " Yes, it will only come true in your dream".
I call this week sweet because I find myself feeling happy all the time despite the itchiness I have. I'm glad to see that there is a lot of new members joining our Christian Fellowship. It's a new beginning again for them. Looking at the new foundation students reminds me of the first time when I step into Utar. The word ALIEN was the only thing that I can describe for myself. I hope they can adapt to the people and environment over here.
Results are one of the most common topic to talk about when a new semester starts. And so, my friends and I are also keen to ask people about it. I didn't do it for the sake of comparing but I'm just being caring. I just want to share the happiness of those who had improved in their studies and encourage those who didn't do to well. And I'm glad that one of friends who didn't do well in the 2nd semester decided to put in more effort in the 3rd semester. Only four days had passed in this new semester but he had already start revising. This is the spirit that all of us need to learn.